{Beautiful Wild Things}

Thoughtful Thursday #1

As a part of keeping a very honest blog, as a part of staying true to who I really am; I decided to start Thoughtful Thursday, I can't promise and say it will come every Thursday but I do promise that it will be thoughtful and true. 

On August 11, 2014, the world lost one of it's most beloved actor, Robin Williams. His death was painful and sudden but we have promised to keep him in our memory and in our hearts. 
When I first learned the news, I was in shock. Not to say that I am an ultimately fan, but I have always loved him and some of his movies are my personal favorites; however, I was mostly shocked about how he died. I felt my heart drop as I kept reading endless and endless articles, some that paid tribute to the late actor/comedian and some that were just really disrespectful and judgmental. I think many people love to forget that at the end of the day, the people we put in the spotlight and the people we idolize are very much like us, at the end of the day, they are simply human. 

Depression. Suicide.
These are things that everyone hopes never happens close to them. It's unfortunate to think that this happened to someone who was making many people happy. 
The truth is that no one really knows what it's like to be there and feel that, unless you have. 
I don't believe depression is something you can snap out of, or something temporary. I don't even really think medication can cure it. And the stigma surrounding mental illnesses and disorders can't make diagnosing any better. 
According to Healthline.com, 121 million people around the world suffer from depression and the truth is that so many people go undiagnosed. 

When I was a teenager, there was a time when I felt hopelessness and loneliness, I truly felt that it wasn't going to get better. I saw many of my friends self harm and in all that darkness I was able to find a light. To Write Love On Her Arms was a movement that helped me get through some really tough times. I am by no means diagnosed with any disorder but I often feel as if I could have one. This is really tough for me to come to terms with but I want to make sure that I take a stand and fight for myself and for the people who go through these terrible diseases. We all have demons, we all have fears but it's a wonderful thing to know that and to fight against them. We must not let the darkness take over, and we must embrace having a little bit of it for without darkness there is no light. 

I'm only sharing this little bit of me because I hope to shine a new light on this, I hope to change someone's mind about depression and suicide. 
Depression is not something anyone chooses to go through, it is a disease and though you can get help, I don't believe it ever truly goes away forever. 
It is a struggle and the people who suffer are very brave, especially those who choose to fight it and live with it. 

Robin Williams and all the other people who commit suicide are not cowards, they are simply people who had too much, for too long and people who simply could no survive their disease. They don't deserve to be ridiculed and judged for something that truly was beyond their control. 

Thank you for taking the time to read this, I am by no means an expert and just wish to share my thoughts with you all. 

If you or anyone you know has suicidal thoughts, please call 1-800-273-8255
or visit http://www.suicidepreventionlifeline.org 

For more information on the wonderful movement To Write Love On Her Arms please visit:

We love you Robin, we'll miss you terribly. 
Genie, you're free. 

Infinite love 
yours truly,